What's this with Marriage thing?

With my dear school friends getting married these days; I have that feeling of insecurity within me. Yes, I am scared to utter that word 'marriage' and then imagine myself being married! What is that which scares me so much? Why do I feel that marriage is a burden, a melodramatic boredom and a journey too tiring to start?

Well, more than 75% of Indian young women share the same opinion. They either don't want to marry or just want years to live their lives to the fullest; before they get married. The prevailing orthodox norms of our society has left not much to harass our thoughts. Expectations are too high on both ends-the girl's side as well as the boy's side.

While family of a guy looks for a girl who is not merely good looking, fair and tall but also is well educated and has a job. On the other side, a girl's family hooks on to its old belief that a guy with a government job has stability in life and will be capable of bearing the burden of the family. Also, if he is a single child then it's an added advantage! The better the position of the guy, higher are his demands for dowry.

You can't blame modernism for the change in ideology of today's youth. It's the need of the hour and it's very much required that we break the old norms and walk our path. Love marriage in this aspect has helped channelise the thoughts and way of living of the 3G generation. But, again there are certain couple who in spite of being independent and residing in metro cities; can't take their stand and marry at their own will. Parents always are ready with one or other reason to go against them. They have their own explanations. 

Recently, I had to go to my home town to attend my best childhood friend's wedding, but my parents denied my travelling from Delhi to home. They are anyway expecting me to be at home by the end of this month as they are meeting a guy and his family for my marriage. I am so not interested is what I want to speak out boldly but again-Circumstances have taken a hold on my nerves. I always wanted to speak out my heart to them about my decision on marrying the guy I like. But, never did I get a chance so likely to be 100% sure and confident of talking to them on this matter. Problems in my case are varied- My guy needs 2-3 years to settle. My parents are after my life to get me married by the end of this year.

So, all of this rounds back to the same point-I am scared of marriage! Hoping for a solution to sneak out from somewhere.

WONDERING

You went away when I needed you the most.
Leaving me with a deep wound
Not easy to heal, not to get rid off soon.

You smiled then standing at the line
The line that demarcated our ways.
Our paths which routed to separation;
To different lanes and different worlds.

You don't have an idea how much
Did I wait there, standing still for
Almost a while.
So that you might turn back and smile
Speak through your eyes, confirming your return.

But alas! You didn't.
You just left without saying anything.

I'm puzzled whether to wait for you,
Or let things happen on their own.

Should I ask you take me by arms
And let me walk with you.
Or move ahead alone with time?

The choice is difficult, critical
Yet necessary to be made.
I'm still wondering.....

Je t'aime: Dew Drop

Je t'aime: Dew Drop: Dewdrop- so pretty, so clear, so fresh and rejuvenating; Just Like first love! I felt it on my fingertip, And it thrilled me with its ...

Je t'aime: Mesmerising

Je t'aime: Mesmerising: Mesmerising                      The word that takes away  all your senses.                       It was then when I saw you for the f...

Mesmerising

Mesmerising

                     The word that takes away 
all your senses.
                      It was then when I saw you
for the first time;
                      That I was mesmerized
Yes, and then for the first time,
                       My heart skipped a beat.
How natural it felt then
                        To like you, Think of you
And be with you.
                         It was Spring, I remember
Blossoms & Colours;
                         Beauty & Nature
Everything around was complete,
                         Soaked in the feeling of 
Love-I realized what
                          Love is and how it 
Feels like to be in Love.
                          Then the butterflies, the flowers
The sky, raindrops, grass
                           All seemed so perfect.
So beautiful, So like you!
                           And then slowly slowly
You resided in my heart,
                           And soaked in my soul
For once & forever!
          

Dew Drop

Dewdrop- so pretty, so clear, so fresh and rejuvenating;

Just Like first love!
I felt it on my fingertip,
And it thrilled me with its
Fresh and chilled sensation.
This feeling was new but innate,
Same like losing self and
Being completely someone else's
I wanted to keep it forever,
But it dropped down my finger.
For that fraction of second;
I was left isolated, deserted
And felt a hard prick inside.
It taught me thence,
That nothing is forever to keep.
Nothing stays with you always.
In this race of  mortality;
Things come your path
And pass away.
But with their single moment
Of precious presence
They teach you lessons for life.
If it stays, it's yours;
If not, it never meant to be!

Remembrance

I still remember that day,

When Spring was in its full bliss;

And nature played that tune

The air around was tranquil cool

And butterflies were out of cocoon.

Then clasping hand-in-hand, we went

On Path that led to peace,

And love and only love it spoke

With you I felt comfort and ease.

The sun though shined, it felt so nice

And everything smelt so sweet!

With you, just you that day

It seemed was 'one special treat'.

The blissful moments in your lap

The warmth in your words

Then healed up all my sorrow

And took away all my hurt.

It has been long, it has been far

But love has melted not a bit.

That sensitizing on my nerves;

That feeling would never quit.

I owe to you this life and more,

For giving me wonderful memories

And so I pay tribute to you

In form of remembrance and poetry.