Thursday, March 26, 2015

That broken teeth dream and compromises!

I dream a lot and I also remember the dreams bit by bit. Well, it has been months since I dreamt and it was yesterday night that I dreamt of broken teeth. To figure out why did I had such a dream; I did a couple of online research and what I found out was actually so true and said just the right thing I am facing these days. 
Dreaming about broken teeth means costly compromises or a warning about the cost of a decision or action. It also indicates that one is losing sight of oneself and one's needs by compromising too much to fit with other people's expectations. 

And now I realize pondering over the past months what I have been going through. I have been facing depression, thought to suicide and even wanted to run away to some isolated place where I do not keep in touch with anyone. The reason being the consistent pressure by my family on me to marry just anyone they choose for me and my life coming to a state of stagnancy. I have thought over and over to make peace with their decision but I am not able to digest the fact that I will be leading a life dictated by my parents who will be having no worries of me soon after I am left married with a guy of their choice. 
The simple fact is that I do not want to marry-not now...and never! I am satisfied with my life being alone. I love the way I am and I don't need anyone else to be by my side to complete it.