Every day story: the metro version

Yesterday my journey in the metro was bothersome with a girl standing right in front of me with her backpack banging on me every time the  metro was speeding up and then she was not having the slightest of idea as to how irritating she seemed to me.

I was not in mood of saying anything to her but then the continuous load of her backpack was annoying and I truly was getting disturbed as I was reading a book. After all, reading a book is not an easy job in metro, especially when everyone is in their bitchiest form bitching about their random friends and colleagues and all the people in their lives. Some are in the best of moods to enjoy and have a gala time clapping, ranting and mimicking and definitely proving themselves as free entertainment for the fellow passengers.

Some are couples trying to be cozy to each other, lost in their own dreamworld and not letting go a single second without clasping each other by arms and shoulders.

Few others are not in mood of having much fun without torturing others through their weird looks as if they are scanning you throughout from top to bottom.

And then there are others who irritate you through their conversions pointing you and then waiting for a remark from your side.

So, getting back to my reading. Yes, through everything like above happening around me, I try to focus on my book and the only way to help me focus is tuning into my headphones.

Music plus book = peace and ignorance!

Haven't you faced more or less the same as above?
Share your  version of metro every day story.

Plan - it is meant to never work!

Life sure plays jokes ...sometimes random, sometimes quite serious to sweep you by your feet. 
You must have made plans for your life two years down the line. Few must have planned to get settled with their own business while few others  must have thought of getting married to their beloved ones. Whatever it be, plans are after all plans and they work at times but majority of the times; they do not.

And for me a plan is something that exists just in imaginations. Seriously!

Few years back, when I was in college, I had plans of getting my book published and had dreams of being one of the national best-sellers. But to see myself nearing no where as per my plan, now I can clearly see the pitfalls and the truth that lies behind planning.

Sometimes, we plan just for the sake of having a plan and to compete with others while most of the times we are thinking that just to survive, we need to have some planning in order to be roughly near it. 

That sums up to our callousness and we are never seriously talking about it. We fear to spill the beans as we might be laughed at or made fun of. We also have that threat that our plan might be copied by someone else, so we take utmost pleasure in keeping it a secret.

So, let's face it. We are always kidding and when we get serious ( out of the blue) life plays that prank on us and smiles at us childishly as if asking- "Kyu bura laga kya"? 

And we have simply no answer than to just being felt cheated.

That broken teeth dream and compromises!

I dream a lot and I also remember the dreams bit by bit. Well, it has been months since I dreamt and it was yesterday night that I dreamt of broken teeth. To figure out why did I had such a dream; I did a couple of online research and what I found out was actually so true and said just the right thing I am facing these days. 

Dreaming about broken teeth means costly compromises or a warning about the cost of a decision or action. It also indicates that one is losing sight of oneself and one's needs by compromising too much to fit with other people's expectations. 

And now I realize pondering over the past months what I have been going through. I have been facing depression, thought to suicide and even wanted to run away to some isolated place where I do not keep in touch with anyone. The reason being the consistent pressure by my family on me to marry just anyone they choose for me and my life coming to a state of stagnancy. I have thought over and over to make peace with their decision but I am not able to digest the fact that I will be leading a life dictated by my parents who will be having no worries of me soon after I am left married with a guy of their choice. 

The simple fact is that I do not want to marry-not now...and never! I am satisfied with my life being alone. I love the way I am and I don't need anyone else to be by my side to complete it. 

Shiva- the incarnation of the unborn and immortal!

Today we celebrate Mahashivratri as a day of Shiva, the Rudra, the Mrintunjay, Mahadeva.

Shiva means the auspicious and we are not ignorant to his Neelkanth form as well.
I offer him my prayer through these words. 

शिव स्तुति

रौद्र रूपं, महा मृतुनजयम

शिवम् तुम्ही सत्य, सुन्दरम

हर नाम का अभिषेक तुम

तुम्ही संसार का सार, अंत तुम

हे नीलकंठ, विष हारनम

तुम महादेव भय नाशनं

आजन्मा, अमर, अगोचरं

विध्वन्श्कारम, सुर्यरूपम

त्रिमूर्ति के सृजन्हारम

अनंत्कारम, निर्विकारं

कैलाशपति, योगी तुम

कला, नृत्य का स्वरुप तुम;

तुम हो प्रखंड सूर्य की किरण

तुमसे है जन्मा हर एक कण

तुम जीत हो, अजेय तुम

त्रिशूल-हारी, पार ब्रह्म तुम

हर शब्द में तुम हो प्रभु;

हर साँस में, विश्वास में

क्या करूँ तेरा बखान मैं;

तुम सत्य, सुन्दर प्राण में

सनातन हो तुम, सदानंद भी

जगत के पति, तुम तेज भी, तुम मंद भी.

© श्रुति सुमन, १७ फरवरी, २०१५, १२:३८ दिवा, मंगलवार, नई दिल्ली

Hope - the silver lining amidst dark clouds

They say if it meant to be yours, it will stay or will come back to you no matter what. Now, when I look at it; everything becomes clear and simpler. True, when we are in a situation, it never happens to seem the way it is, it rather grows complex for us.  Twisted and complex and all we have to do is just curse ourselves and feel pity for being in such a state.

But, unless you know the very basic fact that whatever situation life puts you through, it always prepares you step by step for being capable of what you ought to be. So, rise and let yourself know the purpose of being alive and being in this world.

There will be days when you will feel all shattered and desolate, but sticking to hope will fuel you up and will surely bring you to where you will feel at ease. It’s like balancing and you will realize that everything that happens has a hidden reason within.

So, stay calm and keep pulling yourself up. Chase your dreams until they are your companion because life was never meant to be an easy game!

Hope. Smile. Cheers!

J

HOPE

Have you thought what keeps you breathing? We all plan for our future in such a way that we are here to stay forever but hardly do we realize that we can’t even guarantee about the next very day that is to come. So, what is it that keeps us in the happy illusion of creating the web of dreams? It’s the simple, four lettered word-HOPE!

We get up every day with a hope that it will be a long happy day. That no matter what kept us upset yesterday, this day is going to be different and that this day will surely change for our good!

It’s hope that keeps us pacing forward with all our stamina and energy. It makes us believe in the possibility of the impossible. It keeps us revived and keeps us energetic to chase our dreams.

So, let’s hope to give our best and lead life with such passion that at the end we smile with accomplishment of never giving up and no regrets.

Cheers!

J

Bad time takes you to philosophy!

Much to the latest that has rolled upon to my side, I have been awestruck and a bit taken aback; but then life takes its own turn and time to give you what you deserve. Like we always say-"I never imagined that something of such kind would ever happen to me" and then we are actually found facing that scenario. So true, yet so difficult to digest!

I won't say that it was the worst that could have ever happened to me but yes, I would definitely take time to ponder and smile back to the issues that have been giving me the knuckle rapping every now and then.

Problems- they come when we least expect them like a cyclone that never introduces its pre-arrival to anyone. They also are said to be grown faster when nursed. I wonder who got all such remedies to throw at us when we have nothing left but just few tears to shed on our ill-fate.

Nothing goes as thought and planned yet we are taught to make a strategy of things, to follow a routine, or mark a deadline and to adhere by our guidelines and plans. Does anything ever happen according to one's own whims and fancies?

I know this whole nagging and disappointing write up will not make you any more at ease, but would relate to you at some point.